Studio and Beyond

Architecture studio has ended. I'm filled with mixed feelings actually. It was an awesome experience for sure. But there were times when I looked forward to the end, to a time when I could sit and think about absolutely nothing for a while. now it's over, and i can't stop thinking about architecture, reading blogs, and looking at pictures. it's odd.

I was stoked from the start of the session to make things. studio didn't disappoint. yet I never expected to feel a kind of anxiety when creating, this feeling of knowing what to do, but not how to do it. To add on to the confusion, the TA would often look at my models or drawings and essentially say that they sucked, sending me on a 180 degree turn. The results of these projects were not as good as I would have liked, but I learned a lot from the overall experience.

Which brings up the question, am I really cut out for this sort of thing? It's one thing to continually learn from past projects and failures in studio. But eventually I'd have to succeed in the real world, to win the bid, and build the building that people will enjoy. Am I creative "enough" for that? Not now...

I believe I have potential. I can definitely see myself improving my ability to come up with ideas and working on them. Needless to say, this will take a huge time commitment. Should I pursue a career in architecture, I’d be taking the high road.

So what am I willing to sacrifice? Would I have time for a family? How much money is this gonna cost me? the questions keep rolling in.

I’ll do what I can to plan things out. The future's uncertain, but I do need a general sense of where I want to be 10 years, maybe even 20 years from now.

If there's any certainty in all this, it's that whatever career I choose to pursue, engineering or architecture, I’ll have to pursue it with little hesitation and a ginormous amount of passion. The time I’ve spent in studio can certainly attest that architecture is a struggle that I’ve got to put all my energy in to overcome, a struggle that is both frustrating and attractive. after these six weeks, I can already tell that going into architecture would be one helluva road trip.

should i take it?